I think I had made a wrong decision to stay at home in Bangkok along the New Year’s holiday. The place I should be was Laos. I needed to be somewhere but here and stay there for days – hanged out, fulfilled the inspiration, took shots of photograph – it’s all my to-do plan. I have felt failed and lost because of some kind of disappointment. I realized myself not to insist in my thought, plan, ideal, or something if it went wrong – it made me so bad and mad.
Now I’m here in Trang, the place I think I should not be. It’s not important me to be here. And I don’t want to!!!
I’m still wanting to hang out. It’s no enough for that trip in Pattaya and Bangsaen. The time of fun and happiness is always so short.
I miss my friends, girl-friends, closed friends and all of my sisters. I want to hang out with them all in the same time and I will be the coordinator to let them know each other. But, in this real world, it’s impossible.
I have to dream my dream along my every-day life. So sad whenever I see the truth.
